About

My Name is Mary, I am 34 years old, been married since December 2016 to my amazing husband Dave (amazing because he puts up with my bullsh*t) and we have a beautiful baby daughter called Liberty Raven who was born on 6th September 2018.

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar after years of struggling  with my emotions which I thought was completely normal!  The NHS definition goes as follows:

Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, is a condition that affects your moods, which can swing from one extreme to another.

People with bipolar disorder have periods or episodes of:

  • depression – feeling very low and lethargic
  • mania – feeling very high and overactive, less severe mania is known as hypomania

Some of the highs and lows I have experienced consisted of quitting jobs, Living the dream as a Club 18-30 holiday rep when I was 21, moving to London to study at the London College of Fashion at 25 following on from a passing comment, being a serial engager (I have 4 rings, 1 made it to have the accompanying ring) cheating (I am not proud of this one little bit), making extremely poor life choices,  and even a couple of times where I have been in a very dark place.

I have done so much research into why I have it and no one knows exactly what causes bipolar disorder.  Lots of recent research has focused on looking for causes in genetics or the biology of the brain, but many researchers also believe social factors may play a part, such as difficult life events or experiencing trauma as a child. (https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/bipolar-disorder/causes/#a )

Childhood trauma is what I believe triggered me. During a difficult time when I was 9, my parents split due a insane situation which consists of an affair , a sexual harassment claim which lead to job lose and it was splashed over the tabloids. (They did get back together though) To top it all off, I was diagnosed with a hole in my heart and had to have surgery to fix or I wouldn’t live past 13. Even now thinking about it causes me distress! No one is to blame for this, these things happen! That’s just life! Download Crying Face Emoji Icon | Emoji Island

I fully understand the illness now and learnt to live it. I do struggle sometimes to work out whether some of my thoughts are what I actually think or are they medicated.

This blog allows me to write down my thoughts and feelings, share my life with you and be a place where I am able to talk about topics or experiences which I can relate to and then give my view to help me learn from them.  Maybe it might help you learn too and  enable you to share your own opinions and experiences. If I can help only one person with my experiences or advice, then I would be happy with that.

I hope you enjoy reading it, feel free to contact me if I can help you with anything relating to any of the above.

Love

Mary

3 Comments

  1. Hi Mary!

    Congratulations on creating “Bipolar Mum & The Baby”! I found your “About” page very interesting. I’m sorry you went through such trauma at the young age of 9 and the hole in your heart – those things are awful beyond words!!!

    My name is Dyane Harwood and I’m the mom of 2 little girls. I have bipolar one disorder which was triggered by childbirth. I’m the author of the memoir “Birth of a New Brain—Healing from Postpartum Bipolar Disorder.”

    I wondered if you might be interested in a free review PDF copy of my book. If you like it, maybe you could review it for your blog. I’m honored “Birth of a New Brain” has received wonderful reviews from moms.

    I’m also offering free PDF file review copies of “Birth of a New Brain” to anyone affected by mental illness so you’re welcome to include my offer to your blog followers.
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    Here’s the U.S. Amazon link for more information & reviews: 📖☺

    https://amzn.to/2DUL1DV

    Thanks very much for your consideration. I look forward to hearing from you–no rush. I know you’re busy with your beautiful Liberty Raven and with everything else moms like us face every day! Take good care.

    Warmly, 💞

    Dyane

    ————————————————————————————
    Dyane Harwood, B.A.
    Author, Birth of a New Brain—Healing from Postpartum Bipolar Disorder
    Foreword by Dr. Carol Henshaw
    The PsychCentral Show Episode
    https://psychcentral.com/blog/tpcs-podcast-what-is-postpartum-bipolar-disorder/

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      1. Hi again, Mary! How was going back to work after your maternity leave? I remember when I had to return after my first girl was born. Oh, it was so hard but thank God I had a couple of nice babysitters to help me out. My fingers are crossed that you got through it as smoothly as possible.

        Thanks for your sweet reply about my book – I can email it to you; all you need to do is email me at dyaneleshinharwood@gmail.com & I’ll pop it right back at you.

        Take care & hang in there, beautiful mommy!
        XOXO
        Dyane

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